And I'd live within that moment, as long as you could stay.
Beyond goodbye. Beyond the pain.
I will never let go. You will always remain."
-- Imperative Reaction, You Remain
2011 has, for me, been one of great, repeated, and unrelenting loss. I expect that I will look back at this time in my life as the darkest I have ever lived through, when I even choose to look back on it at all.
I am returned from the latest of these losses and, as has been the case in all the previous, I feel diminished in so many ways for my troubles. I feel less human. I feel less alive. I feel less driven. I definitely feel a lot less happy. And I feel even less like the person I once was (and not in a good "self-improvement" sort of way).
I give homage to the glorious dead. For they no longer find themselves troubled by the vagaries of human life, human interaction, human failings, and all-too-human betrayals. Rest well.
Now that I have returned, I wish to apologize to those whom I had promised to come see over the last few weeks (especially the performances - Molly foremost, as I seem to keep missing your shows over and over again).
I also apologize to those to whom I haven't responded via the various communication channels available. Thank you for your thoughts and concerns. I am, in fact, still alive.
And I am back now, and SFGothic.net can now return, hopefully, to something resembling its previous operating parameters (which only included about one post a week, I admit, but at least I was keeping up on the Event pages and Calendar).
Welcome back to the shadows, my darklings. I'm glad to be home.
-- Mr. M.